Love
What is love?
I am not sure I know the answer to this question. I am not sure anyone really does. Webster says that love is "an emotion of a strong affection and personal attachment. Love is also a virtue representing all of human kindness,compassion, and affection —"the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another". Love may describe actions towards others or oneself based on compassion or affection
OK so I read this definition over and over and over again after starting this post and something started to really settle into my brain-"the unselfish......concern for another."
Unselfish part-that is the part that really garnered my attention.
Unselfish
Hmmmm
Unselfish
Lately,
I have found myself on a journey that I really had no intention of going on. Hmmm, I don't suppose anyone has ever felt that way before :) but I digress. I have been on a journey and it has been a most unpleasant one to say the least.
I can see that our most unpleasant of journeys typically can be avoided if only by choosing to follow our intuition about people and situations, and to take emotions out and to judge situations and people with complete objectivity. It is amazing how ugly people and situations can seem when the lights are preverbial turned on.
On this journey I have realized some truths about myself and about life and mostly, well about love.
First, I am here to learn a lot of very difficult lessons and I have no idea why I signed up for this school some days and other days I have amazing things that happen that remind me why I am here.
Second, life is a school of hard knocks. Trying situations, grief and loss will not go away there is no going around these lessons, you have to go through them-which sometimes, no most of the time, SUCKS.
Third you will eventually get to a point where you start to questions the very sanity of the word, LOVE.
I have a family. You have a family. I would venture to say that most of us would not make a claim to that being a perfect intitity, am I right?
I think many of us have pasts that haunt us to this day, things we wish would could change about our childhoods the way we grew up, the way we were parented, and maybe even the siblings we were given.
I think however, that we may have chosen to surround ourselves with these challenging individuals. WHY, do you ask? Good question, I find myself many times asking that SAME question.
But truth is growth comes from pain, it comes from questions, it comes from being bigger than a hurtful situation. Growth comes from breaking through the hardness of difficult situations.
And then the mother of all questions arose- HAVE I ever been really loved? In my entire life has anyone ever REALLY, REALLY loved me? I am not sure, it is a surreal thought to stop and ponder this-I thought this through and really pondered this question for days and I meditated on this and read book about it......and then as plain as day once I started to blog about it another thought popped in my head-HAVE I EVER REALLY LOVED? What of course I have, I have loved......I have loved.....wait what is love again....."unselfish....concern for another" Hmmmm, have I ever really loved-maybe the truth is I have to learn how to love first, so I can recognize it another person when I see it!!!!
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