electronic

So Here I am on this electronic device wondering if its well distracting.
Yes it is a great medium for passing on information but do I use it, do we as a society use it so we don't think.
I am not implying no one out there thinks, and I know I use the computer to research lots of things,
But I mean think
really really think
like Einstein think 
or Galileo Galilei think
are we so stuck in the not thinking virtual reality that is brought to us so effortlessly
that streams so much in to our mind that we have no room to think any independent thoughts because we are so busy with the influx of mindless info from the virtual world! 
I just wonder what would happen if we walked away from the mindless chatter for one day, one week, one month, one year-can you imagine what we might accomplish as individuals, as a society, how about the entire world!!!!
It is a fascinating thought to say the least
do I think it will happen,
I don't know
BUT if you can unplug for a day or a week or a month, you def need to tell us about it! If i can I will share I promise or threaten LOL-depends on how you see it :)
Blessings
Niki Brown







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Lessons only a child can teach us

I woke up this morning in a irritable mood! Why? I didn't know, but I was not in any mood for mom mode! Getting 3 children around for school, baths, breakfast, book bags around! No matter how I tried to analyze it, let it go, find the energy and joy inside myself, I just couldn't shake it. Not only me, but my children could feel it as well!

As my children were sitting at the table eating breakfast this morning, I over hear my 9 yr old son say, "Mom isn't mom today, we must be making her really mad and she doesn't want to be our mom anymore!" My 10 yr old daughter responded, "She's just grouchy, she must not of had enough sleep last night."( When in truth I slept 10 hrs straight and that def. wasn't the reason.) Suddenly, my 4 yr. old said, "It's ok, I was a baby at pre-school yesterday and I cried, but today Im much older, I am no longer a baby, but a big boy. Tomorrow mom will not be a baby, but a big girl!" It hit me suddenly, even at 4, my son realized that even as an adult we can turn into a "wounded child," a "victim"-but it isn't what defines us-it consumes a moment in time, but at the next given moment we can let it go, and grow up. That it is a brief state, but once we are aware of it we don't have to stay in that state! That it is "ok", accept it for what it was and just start over. We don't have to allow the "victim" moment to turn into guilt, or a vicious cycle that tears us down and carries on for days! Its as simple as realizing that we were there, but don't have to stay there~



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Healing ME Healing YOU

I decided to work on my underlying beliefs about me, not the universe as a whole, not religion, but ME! So, what does that mean exactly, well I decided there were things in my life I needed admit had happened, not in a dreamy state but in real life emotional state.

I decided to face the Fear in the events-however small they may have seemed at the time or to others. I decided to relive and reevaluate the fear and emotions one episode at a time and really process all of it, no matter how it felt.
I did this through writing, its amazing to see yourself written in a line. I would swear there is a connection between your hand in your soul that has been undiscovered!! When I write it out I can see clearly where I stand and I can reread the issues that are before me.
8 pages later I was crying and angry
I know, I know how could this really help...
Well, I went back through each instance, each episode I was holding on to and looked at it analytically..
WHY
Why would this person do this to me
WHO
Who was responsible for what happened
WHAT
What was wrong with this person that caused them to act this way
WHEN
When did this person change-what in their life caused the change
WHERE
Where in my life can I see the issues caused by holding on to this pain-Where was it causing tension in TODAY
Then I decided to
Look at the SHAME
Did I in fact carry shame about the episodes, the situations-I looked back over my list and made peace with the fact that these situations were not my fault, they were caused by someone else who had their own set of issues to deal with, they were not my issues to fix but that they clearly needed prayers-from a distance

We need love the most when we are unlovable right??
Then I let go
I just let go
The reason these things happened where not up to me to figure out-they were not my problems to resolve-they are the other persons!!!
I then wrote out a list of affirmations
I am beautiful
I am strong
I am intelligent
I am a teacher
I am a student
I am well
I welcome health
I welcome money
I welcome a healthy relationship
I welcome fertility
I am a successful career woman
I am an amazing mother
I am an amazing cook
I am an amazing wife
I live by the ocean
I live in the mountains
I am a best selling author
ect....
you see the point I decided that my life was not decided for me it was my decision

My entire LIFE is my decision
who I am, who I want to be are exactly the same the only difference is the way I perceive it and what I choose to believe!!
I have been repeating these to myself daily and am finding my head sitting up a bit higher, the shoulders are back a little more and my confidence as a woman returning!!
I am woman hear me ROAR!!!!!!!!
Blessings
Niki B

























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